I'm dying inside because the top 10 on the stats board got chosen for the beta
and I'm an idiot and stopped playing while waiting for the update
and now I'm in 12th
the one time it matters
and I don't get to be in the beta
even if I do get picked I have to wait until tomorrow
and then A CERTAIN YOUTUBER THAT JUST ABUSED YT TXP TO GET INTO THE TOP 10 GETS TO BE IN THE BETA EVEN THOUGH HE DID NOTHING TO DESERVE IT
and I just had deja vu from a while back where Pretzule comments here and says I'm in the beta for tomorrow but I know that won't happen because it was probably just some stupid shit my mind made up and it's not Pretzule's fault that random number generators hate me and that I'm lazy and I hate everything
and I want to die
and I bet he'll come here and insult me and the mods won't notice and he'll delete the message and he'll get away with being a jerk and he'll brag about he got in the beta and I didn't and someone shoot me
Oculus I am missing out because I have to wait until tomorrow for even just the knowledge of being in the beta
even if it's down just knowing I could go on once it's back up would save me from suffering
actually flamingpinecone it's not sad
lemme explain
I hoped it was obvious that this was a joke
but there's the slight chance that people might think it's not
I've been pessimistic like this in the past, I want to assure people I'm just being depressed and that I'm not considering suicide
suicide isn't something to be joked about, so I put that there to clarify that I'm not actually being serious, and that I'm just being stupid instead :/
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