Bloodarchmage's Diary

Requested by @LarzLapiz

• This post here will record everything that i would tell my friends if they was at all interested.

• Dates and time will be recorded
• these are my own opinions, but you are allowed to disagree with them to provide a new perspective

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Tuesday 4 dec 2018 7:09 pm
wow, this was a good day, i did a lot of work even if the internet was down for the whole suburb (i was going to tell the location but my conscious snapped just in time to yell that i shouldn't tell what area it affected because it COULD lead to somebody tracking me)

I wrote more than in the first attempt i did in english and made it more filling instead of one line sentences

I learnt some of the formulas for maths and i might be able to understand it easier for the maths test that's giving me the chills (If you don't get a certain percent you don't pass the class)

Maybe i was wrong about the whole "bad at school" thing because i was just doubting myself.

because, one the preliminary tests had 3-5 marks off which means i did very well in it, even if it didn't count (choosing a different path) i think this proves i'm not stupid.

It's that sad sack of darkness inside holding me down.

 

visual representation of "the darkness"
EAArRRRn? LOL

 

wed 5 dec 5:41 am

first world problems: i want to finish up my ninja before the update but i have 2 assignments that i have to finish and study for a maths exam

12:51 the internet has comeback finally and i'm happy it did i thought they would do it when it was cut and it would comeback the next day (today) but this is cool too

9:56 pm https://wynndata.tk/s/v0Vuqt WHAT? i what curious what this would do and it's monstrous.. maybe i should get slayer for my third and final mythic

 

10:06 Thursday 6 dec
- That maths exam went alright, i wish they gave us more than 50 mins, i probably could have asked for extra time because i am in special education.
- My friend messaged me that he can't play wynn because he has to focus on year 12 and another game, destiny.
- this medication is not good, it only works sometimes..
- i hope i get to finish my other tasks on time, i need to put extra force of willpower to not get distracted.
-i think i should hurry up on my tasks because i feel something on my back, They are both due next week.

 

3:57 fri dec 7 2018


The internet cut out again.. i have to finish these tasks today because of the promise I made for this weekend, I want to avoid opening any of my social media to avoid opening pandora’s box

(pre written entry to avoid social media)

7:13 this is actually the first week done i should just do 50% or more and i should be fine

 

hello continue this

 

i forgot...

 

@Lar2
ten characters

 

9:53 monday 10 dec 2018
I forgot about the diary entries for the weekend
what happened:
i waited 1 and a half hours for ??? and then @Eric Yang and my guild wanted to do it so we did, i wish we did it last weekend because that's when i planned to do it but i had to go cherry picking with my family

> i went to lunch for my mother's birthday (it's today but it's a Monday) had dinner with my dad i wanted to do homework after the lunch but i forgot to submit the alarm because i went to sleep and wanted 1 hour of sleep before doing it.

in order: lunch -> go to sleep for 1hour -> wake up and do more homework
> i six starred my veromos but didn't get another natural 5 from summoning after.. oh well at least i got Mantura and Iona and light golem
>starting to prepare the fusing material for Sigmaris (because i will need this later)

this morning is pretty uneventful, i found out not all of the assignments where on Friday, the religion one is on Wednesday which is making me panic.

11:19 am:this weeks character strength is forgiveness, the teacher was talking about how not forgiving people puts a weight on you. This, convinced me to forgive my dad.

4:14pm BLOODY HELL doesn't anybody clean up in this house? my brother's room is still a fucking mess and i had to clean the kitchen, it was the same as it was left in the morning.
i also found out my work studies is ALSO due Wednesday.

8:59 i have officially made no progress with any of my tasks, this is stressing me out.

 

8:54pm tue 11 dec
> omg! thank god the religion task has been moved to Friday! i didn't want to do 2 tasks at the same time.
> I finished my work studies task but i only put 500 instead of 800 i think it's the best i could do.
> I want to complete a personal project of mine, a bionicle moc called Asher the fire king, it's supposed to be a titan and also version 1 was bloody awful, looking back i I don't think it would have gone into the 1st round of bio-cup, but i feel a call that wishes i was the best at the things i like. i was really pissed off back then because i had school work and forgot all about the competition and made something rushed. It felt like losing at the tutorial because, it was only the preliminary round.
> Today i am planning out the design for the creation, as much as i wish i was talented in this and could make anything, everybody would be doing it if it was easy
>I finally have all the materials for Sigmaris i got the fire magical archer from somebody's secret dungeon and found the water gryphon in a 3-5 scroll this, makes fusing it a lot easier.
> i am thinking of creating a folio for my creation

 

10:14pm wed 12 dec
> Wow ok i won an award for "2018 student of the year VET" (VET is vocational education and training) kitchen operations. Pretty useful for the resume.

> Thanks to the extension for the religion task i typed some more into the document, i might have to see if my interpretation of the dragon in revelations is correct. (the dragon is the roman army but i'm thinking i have a chance of being wrong and over analysing)

> Sometimes i wish i could draw, to make funny short comics.
"you see this cat? (cat is on his lap) This is not my cat!"

 

10:25 am thu 13 dec 2018

"UH YoU JuSt have tO be LooSe" FUCK ME DEAD! how did you make that?
CONTEXT:i want to learn to draw so i could animate.

 

mon 17 dec 6:36
sorry.. nothing much happened in that time
but now it's finally holidays oof that was a big year

 

uhh i forgot again.. 9:58 am thu 20 dec
i think i'll start the english task next monday but for now i should get outside and get some excersise and also 100% all of my class profiles for wynn
edit:WHAT? 20TH DEC? the presents haven't been wrapped yet and there is 4-5 days before Christmas parties

 

sat 22 Dec 7:28 am

hmm nothing really happening, i just emptied the fridge so there is more room for the Christmas food yesterday.
found out about the fact i could just do all of the discoveries instead of waiting in wynn

 

mon 24 dec 11:48
what happened until this message:

> I went to lunch at a relatives house and played smash ultimate it took a while until i learned the controls but i still have some learning to do
the ones i like the most is ken, wii fit and gannondorf, i was going to main kirby but it's really just a bad character, but i could still disrespect pick with wii fit trainer
"wii fit trainer flexes on his foes" i like red the most because you can see it better on the screen.

> I was playing with my lego because i forgot my charger at the other house i made some weapons for a space pirate captain i'm planning, i want his name to have something to do with is metal claw, but i don't want it to be cheesy because i'm using captain (name here)

> At some point in the afternoon i went for a run and got called hot, and then said "jokes" but then said that i was hot and she was sorry, because she felt bad
i'll take any complement at this point, i also thought of something useful "don't worry what other people think of you but think about it once in a while for a reality check, feedback is good for you."

> Dinner was delicious, mum made a stew and mash potatoes

 

oh wow i forgot to do this by a lot

wed 2 2019
Christmas was "ok" my birthday was a blast
i finally had enough money for the switch for smash ultimate
i'm still a beginner but i'll have to push on " it gets easier, every day it gets a little easier but, you got to do it every day that's the hard part but it does get easier"
this will be my motivation for this year, i want to feel and be like the master of everything i wanted.

we were playing smash brothers with my cousins, my brother and my uncle, i don't care about cake, as long as somebody recognises that it's my birthday nothing matters.

so everybody reading if somebody knows, even if they are "insignificant" (wrong wording probably) that's important.

me and my brother cleaned out the fridge so we have more space in the fridge, the fridge was so dirty and cluttered with junk that we wouldn't eat.

 

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new entrys soon TM

 

9:52 19 feb 2019

it's been swell so far
i'm at the point where i don't want to do anything at school, it's so tiring.. i need to start sleeping at 8 i need to stop staying up, i actually got to the perfect point where i could fall asleep in bed after lying in it. But i ruined it by taking a nap yesterday
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1:22
i am still suffering this runny nose please send help

 

thu 28 feb 20 19 10:23 PM
This week has been great so far, i finally got the habit of doing your homework when getting home, on monday i talked to a total stranger, this means i have less social anxiety (big achievement) it's great knowing nobody is going to kill you if you talk to them. I can finally get 8 hours of sleep a week, which i'm trying to adopt .
I bought shapes today (biscuits)