Help. I need to know whether I'm just a small idiot or a embarrassment

Alright.
I have done TCC 18 times, not much, but today lag was a pain so I did /pq off. usually I do /pq low. Then we had wing room. I was nominated to do wings, and I didn't see the exit once. Please can someone tell me whether this is my fault for doing /pq off or my fault for being and idiot and embarrassing myself in front of the party for no discernible reason?

*Please.*

 

This happened to me too expect I clicked the wings on accident. I do recommend putting particles on but at least from my experience sometimes it doesn't load unless your directly above it. The way I found it is when you get near it some holograms pop up for a split second and I go towards it.