Serious Depression

Ty youre thw first one that ever understood how I feel in my short life

 

Hey, if you need someone to talk to, I'm more than willing to listen. I may not be a professional, or anything, but I've listened to a lot of people in the past, and they say it helped, so just message me if you need to talk to someone. :)

I've gone through this before as well, and honestly, it was the worst experience of my life, and I still get it on and off, but not as intense as it was a few years ago. Don't think that you're alone, or pointless, because I thought the same thing, and then My previous, and current boyfriends really made me realize that I am special to someone in this world. I am special to my parents, I'm special to my Boyfriend(s) my friends, all that. So don't be afraid to ask, I can only hope that you come to the same realization about yourself, and that you can overthrow this monster that is depression that is basically consuming you, trust me, I know how that feels. I've gone through it a lot of times.

I will warn you, it isn't going to go away soon, unless you're really lucky, but that doesn't mean that me, nor really a lot of the community members won't take your situation seriously, and to me, anyone who has to suffer through this pain, and anguish, deserves a friend, and I'm willing to be that friend, who will do anything to be there for you, and help your time of being depressed, be less painful.

I am willing to help, if you are willing to take my hand, and take my assistance, however I won't force you. But I will merely offer you, if you. If you'd rather talk to someone else, that's fine, but please, don't avoid help, but embrace it, because you have no idea how much having someone that's willing to listen in your time of depression, can help.

 

You're right - life is pointless. Its stupid. Things never go the way you want them to.

Its pointless. Its stupid. And everyone else around you is enjoying it.
You're only down because you let yourself be down.
Find something to do. Watch a good TV series. Commit to something. Because the only way things will get better, is if you allow them to get better.
Thats right. Those 'useless cunts' who just want your money cant help you - only you will ever truly understand you. You're too complex, too amazing, too special for anyone other than you to comprehend.
Find the courage inside yourself, because, and I'm speaking from personal experience, life can be tough, but the rewards are so so sweet.

Best wishes,
Mantis

 

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I never really know, when people say stuff like this. It may be true, or it may be attention seeking. Or it may be true, but you need some attention because you're never recognised and that could be a struggle.
But I'll tell you this without seeming all dreamily inspirational. Theres a lot of shit in my life and I used get homesick at other peoples places and it developed into night time being a thing where I felt it was OK to cry and shit. Held it in all time other than that. But it built up and I sometimes didn't get sleep all night.
I also struggled with friends but had some trusted peeps online I was able to talk to. It, for a period of time, got so bad and I was so reliant on them that I would beg and plead and freak out if they had to leave because I did not want to be alone.
That went on for a long time.

I dunno if it was my boyfriend that saved me or something but it just seemed to go away. I sometimes still had it, where I went into meltdowns at night and nobody seemed to be around anymore, but it seemed I could sleep.

I'm going to be real too. Im not gonna say, oh darl I'll be your friend if thats what you need.
I really don't know how to put this without seeming heartless but I'm not saying I'd turn you down or I don't want you to think I won't, but I found if someone said that, I felt... well I don't know how to describe it, and maybe you can resonate with me here. or maybe Im just a heartless cow,

That may seem insensitive but for ME I found I really needed something real, not mopey dopey sympathy where you're always told you have someone, but not savagery. I just wanted real, something telling me not that it's always OK. Not a lie, or fairy tales, but something where I was spoken to by someone not frowning upon me thinking of ways to cheer me up or get me to sleep - because that, that is stuff meant to inspire you, but when you feel like this and you're this deep, inspiration isn't going to help. Nor are things holding you up. Facing it may help. But what really helped me was just taking the beating, night by night, with someone to just talk to. Not about all the terrors, but about them dropping the pizza after they bought it and got home, or a friend hoping to ask someone out, or hearing how someone thought a teacher was hot, or telling a story of someone dear to you that you miss. I really found that last one made me incredibly sad, but it helped because when I told someone the story of a lady I felt closer to her and that I'd carried on her legacy.

Now, this may seem a little cringe but Im a lil teen so Im into this stuff and I was watching Teenwolf cuz hot shirtless guys and there was this conversation which I found really interesting and have been thinking about a lot. I cut out a few bits of the convo so you just get the important stuff. And I guess I lied, this is some mopey dopey inspirational stuff I guess.

Spoiler: Drowning

Stiles: You know when you're drowning, you don't actually inhale until right before you black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's like no matter how much you're freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head's exploding. But then when you finally do let it in, that's when it stops hurting. It's not scary anymore. It's - it's actually kind of peaceful.
Ms. Morrell: And what about you, Stiles? Feeling some anxiety about that championship game tomorrow night?
Stiles: I'm fine. Yeah, aside from the not sleeping, the jumpiness, the constant, overwhelming, crushing fear that something terrible's about to happen.
Ms. Morrell: It's called hyper - vigilance, the persistent feeling of being under threat.
Stiles: But it's not just a feeling, though. It's - it's like it's a panic attack. You know, like I can't even breathe.
Ms. Morrell: Like you're drowning?
Stiles: Yeah. Ms. Morrell: So if you're drowning, and you're trying to keep your mouth closed until that very last moment, what if you choose to not open your mouth? To not let the water in?
Stiles: You do anyway. It's a reflex.
Ms. Morrell: But if you hold off until that reflex kicks in, you have more time, right?
Stiles: Not much time.
Ms. Morrell: But more time to fight your way to the surface?
Stiles: I guess.
Ms. Morrell: More time to be rescued?
Stiles: More time to be in agonizing pain. I mean, did you forget about the part where you feel like your head's exploding? Ms. Morrell: If it's about survival, isn't a little agony worth it?
Stiles: But what if it just gets worse? What if it's agony now and then - and it's just hell later on?
Ms. Morrell: Then think about something Winston Churchill once said - "If you're going through hell, keep going."

Have fun :)

 

I'm not gonna beat around the bush here. Moral support on the Internet helps greatly but it ultimately won't do anything in the long run. There's a big issue with depression, one that I can't really go into. Your depression could either be down to a series of unfortunate events which has led to a deep sadness, or a genuine chemical imbalance in the brain. Either way, please go see a therapist to get help. They will be able to treat the problem no matter what, and then you will stop feeling like this. You do matter, just bear that in mind.

 

It's shit. I get it. It's not gunna go away over night. IK I sound like a conceited cunt, but it took me years to get over my depression. What really helped me was screaming shit. Seriously, try it

 

I dont expect this to get over night Im not idiot

 

'A problem shared is a problem halved'

Take that into consideration, it helped me through a lot of things. Don't go into detail, but 99% of the time, sharing thoughts can lead to happiness & understanding, as well as flushing negative emotions away.

 

i wonder if this video will make you laugh

 

If only it were that simple. I had depression myself a few months ago, and sharing it felt like I was involving more people in my problem. Their sympathy had no effect - in my view I didn't deserve it. Asking for help felt like inviting people to get in my way, and this was what lead me to hide it, so nobody would bother asking. It was awful, but talking about it made it way worse. For me, a problem shared was a problem doubled. I'm not saying sharing this sort of thing is never a good idea, but there's no simple solution.

 

ahh, thats a shame. hopefully it works for others.

 

It didnt

 

:/ oh well