Art ☾ | I'm Sad

There's gonna be a smol rant below, dun click it if ya don't care

Spoiler: ranting for my own good

I'm not one to talk about myself or express my opinions that well, but recently i've been a mess.
again, if you're one of the people who hate me it's fine to click away ye.
i'm gonna spill because i've never spilled anywhere before.

I suffer with bipolar disorder and a bunch of depression/anxiety nonsense.
I've been dealing with it from since I can remember and I have good days and bad ones.
recently it has been the worst out of them all.
I've been to the ER a bunch of times for suicidal tendencies but because I didn't have insurance back then I couldn't get admitted. I've talked to soooo many therapists and sooo many counselors who refer me to physiologists and brain people but couldn't get anything done without insurance or a boat load of monies.
I'm very exhausted with my brain and how I think and how disgusting it can be.
I've been very hateful with myself and I've turned to absolute despising myself.
because of this it made a drought of friendships and relationships.
This part gets cringy if it hasn't already
Luckily I'm dating someone who can deal with my foolishness.
Nathan (@Hippie) is moving to Pennsylvania in October and once this happens I'm most likely going to leave
I'm graduating highschool next year and I hope I can get my shit together and be healthier.
I'm sorry to anyone else I have disappointed or just flat out been rude to.

i'll probably make a video explaining further into things about my brain but for now this is the jist of it.
ugggh i'm gonna regret this

Spoiler: there's one more thing

also, if you deal with depression or any mental illness. I hope you're getting help and you're not alone.
because mosie is here too.

here have some more mosie http://imgur.com/a/1oSrK

oki *runsaway*

Edit/Update: Thank you everyone for the enormous amount of support (and cats).
It genuinely means so much to me to see the community not be 100% toxic because it can be. It's cheesey to say but I'm really glad I could meet people on here (and from the channel and the HS discord) that support and accept me or just be my fren.
Thank you a ton again. also. I'll be trying to eat a ton of happy beans

 

Hope things get easier for you *hugs* :(

 

MOSIE CAN HEAL ALL!!

But really I hope you get better (Insert some random complements that don't really help anyone) :) +f

 

hey mee too ;w;

 

it's OK, you got a big group of frens supporting you!
If you're ever feeling down, just remember you've made a lot of frens, and that you can trust them to support you!
^-^
(this is another rare occasion I do this face.)
-Suh Lyam

 

don't be sad solo. We're here for you.
Disorders like that can be absolute shit, but when you're feeling down, please talk to your family, or even us. I hate to hear how down you've been feeling, and good luck to improving in the future! If you stay positive and work through the tough times, I know you can lessen the negative effects, if not overcome this disorder.

 

I'm super glad the discord made frens ;u;

I'm so grateful to have really good parents and frens on here. I hope to be more open about myself like I have been doing through years. Thank you (and everyone really gursh) for your kindness. <3

 

Snuggles, I've experienced an anxiety and depressive moment before and I know how it feels. It feels there's something inside my mind that messes around with me, causing me to think unnecessary stuff in the process.

The way how I solve it is by talking to someone, especially the ones that you made a connection with. According to you, you do made a lot of connections and friendship throughout the web and they care about you. As for the haters, they're probably envy or jealous of you because of your success. That's probably one of the reasons why suicidal thoughts happens. So, even they try to hate you, do try to ignore their hatred and move on by talking to the people that cared about you. Discord is a good place to start talking this issue with, but also your beloved one, Hippie.

The world nowadays is full of messed up stuff. So try to be yourself and bring happiness to all of us. Good luck, Mama Bean!

 

Best way to deal with depression, keep on telling yourself that you don't give a f*** what others think ignore the rest of humanity belive you can live without friends listen to music and play minecraft
at least this is what i do cause i got no friends

(serious)

 

BRE I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU ;w; you are the kawaiiest bean I know and things will be better I promise you!

Also mosie does cure all sadness it helped me that one time. c:

 

Depression, anxiety and all of that stuff suck and I hope that you'll overcome the bad days and enjoy the good days even more. If you need to talk/rant I'm always here for you ;n; I've got your back.
You two are so lucky to have each other ^.^ (you are one of the cutest couples that I know)

(anxiety kicks in while writing/wanting to post this :c)
(just edited for the 3rd time ;-; fk my anxiety)

- Shaark-Frog

 

o and also if all the bad stuff is getting to you i advise to brake or punch something eg punching bag or pillow
beating up a pillow really helps get all the badness out
btw by badness i mean anger stress sadness ect

 

You might not feel like it sometimes, but you really are!
I hope everything works out for you! ;=;

 

ohmygosh I love this.

Thanks a bunch toasts, you're rad as also

 

Bre, please know that the community (which is us); especially Hippie, are always there for you!

I recently discovered I might be bipolar too. I haven't confirmed or checked on it though, but the symptoms might be true

Anyways, I understand depression and anxiety are stuff that no one wants, but people still blame it on theirselves, but apparently, it's not. I'm no psychiatrist or expert at dealing with mental illnesses, but for now, just hold on with it, try talking to your family or friends about the situation, they'd sure help out. Sometimes, crying out is a good option too. ^^

Most importantly, try to be happy always and do the stuff you enjoy or calms you down most, they really help a lot. For example, when you're sad, stressed or angry, try listening to your favourite songs or jams, you'll feel as if you've forgotten all those bad things. (Works for me). Cheer up! You are a great person no matter what!

Sorry if I'm not good at this or cheering people up, but yeah, it's the least I can do ^^
Be happy!

 

As a sufferer of social anxiety and depression I know how you feel, so here are a few pictures of my cat to hopefully make ya feel a tad bit better too. :3

Spoiler: ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ

 

Just know that a mental disorder cannot interfere with your life nor your performance, what you love doesn't not nor will it ever revolve around your mental state, I know it's quite hard to deal with depression or anxiety, but it surely becomes easy, but you know; everything is hard when you do it at first (Like drawing for example ^.~) ;) just keep this quote in mind (One of my favourite philosophers, Alan Watts), "And after all, if you do really like what you’re doing, it doesn’t matter what it is, you can eventually turn it – you could eventually become a master of it." So don't let something like that be an obstacle, kick it aside and continue what you love, keep doing it ;)

I'm also a person who's dealing with anxiety and OCD, who likes to stay alone and get out of social situations, but I will never let what I anything interact with what I love or what I want to do, my personality isn't my mental state ;>

You two are lucky to have each other and I wish you a bright and delightful future with each other, and Mosie loves you too =^.~=

And the rest of the community wishes you a good life :)

Also my cat loves to help you alongside Mosie, introducing Linda <3

Spoiler: Linda the 1.5 years old kitty :3

 

Sorry to hear about it :(

 

Hahaha check my new kittens I just got today. Puts ur cat to shame




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That ones not new

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Also gud luck bre, I almost attenpted suicide once, but trust me, it gets better

 

Whenever we're at one of the worst times in our life, it's hard to be optimistic. However, things certainly get better. They always do.
So hang in there!



(seriously though, good times always come, especially for great people like you! stick around for 'em!)

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also, you're the only one who can stop Mosie from taking over the world

i've seen the future